He does not define me, I am not defined by how I look or because I am a girl. I am a girl with ideas for myself and I have goals and ambitions too. I am not defined by my actions or my worth of what others think of me, because I am defined by God. He created me... you and others did not shape me or move me to my decisions that I have made through life because with each of my choices on even the smallest is God behind me who directs me in what I aspire to complete. I am a human who falls upon Gods will in order to complete His mission that He has already planned out for me. I am not defined by a boy who I met, I am my own person. I am not defined by others reactions by how I want to approach my decisions in life. I am not defined by my weaknesses and I am not defined by my brothers worth. I am my own worth and my own creation. It's easy to find most of our worth but it's difficult to find the rest. In all honesty I had a friend look me straight in the eye and say, "You need to find the rest of your worth... you have half of it but don't lose yourself. Just find the other half to your worth."
What's worth? Worth; is your self respect for yourself and not changing that for a guy, or a group of friends who you might think are "cool". Worth is something that you have or you don't but also maybe your stuck like I am...
I have half my worth... so what's wrong?
I have people around me 24/7 and really great family back in town and at the same time I crave and need human touch, I need someone to be there for me constantly... at the same time I also want to do my own thing right now...
Im losing half my worth because I'm searching for what God hasn't yet planned for me. I'm hungry for needing something that isn't apart of my plan. I'm in search of all but His love that He already has for me is out there... so why can't I see it...
Because to see and need God love is right in front of us... we sometimes are just to blind to realize. It's always right out for us to put our hand out and or our heart out for Him to see how vulnerable we are to needing Him. Most of us think we can do it by ourself when in reality we're already sinking. So many of us seem to follow Peter as he left his boat to walk towards Jesus as they stand on water. Getting nervous Peter finds himself in doubt and begins to sink... yet he moved to reach for Jesus's hand and He brought Peter back towards Him. God would never let you sink, He would never plan for you to fail without a reason... sometimes we're to blind to see our own savior willing to jump into the seas of our life to pull us out over and over.
Isaiah 43:2
