Most people have had that moment where they want to tell everyone, "It's not easy being me." Well, I have definitely felt that before. What isn't easy is not knowing where to find your self-worth. Parents will tell you, "You're so special in this big world," or "You're worth more than anything." What does that even mean, "worth more than anything"? How am I supposed to know the answer to this when I don't even know how much I'm worth?

I recently started going to my first official Bible study with my mom. A big target of the class is finding your self-worth (bear with me, I'll be using that phrase a lot), and how to do so. Since I've only been to one session so far, I have a ways to go and so much to learn. One thing I took away from the first day was that there's only one place you can find the answer -- your relationship with Christ.

I know that answer may have you thinking, "Well that's a given. Christ is the answer to everything, duh." I thought the same thing--until I thought a little harder. In my everyday life, especially my first year of college, I know I surely wasn't looking to Christ to reassure me that I was worth so much more than decisions I made, or the influences surrounding me. I actually looked to myself--a stupid thing to do--and never quite found what I was looking for. Why were things not getting better? Because thinking that I could handle my own problems and make the right decision every time was a long-shot. Maybe a little too long.

There are so many distractions for us college kids. Everyone on the planet for that matter. If we were just a grain of sand, what pile of sand would we be in? What beach would we belong on? These questions probably won't get answered to a degree. Confusing as it may seem, I just mean that you don't have to know where you're going, or where you belong (you really belong in God's arms, just to be corny). Would you believe me if I said we need to stop planning our whole lives? Well, it's a thing, folks.

God is always trying to communicate to us, He's not hard to find. All it takes is pausing for a moment to hear God's whisper. For me, I find myself always getting distracted, or letting myself get too busy for prayer. I've been deaf to Him and not able to hear what He's been trying to tell me. This is why I've been struggling trying to figure out who I am. All I know is that it takes trusting that He will guide me to the answer. Nothing will be handed to me, I still have to work, just like anyone else.