Hey you,
It's been a little while since we've seen, talked or even said hey as we passed each other. I have been able to see that you're happy now, though, with someone new. And I'm happy for you. I hope that she's able to keep you happy and gives you everything you want and more. Because I know I couldn't.
We weren't even necessarily together, but I spent all my time with you. If I wasn't in class or out with my sorority, I was more than likely with you. I didn't even see you coming, but you did. It was kind of refreshing in a sense . You were familiar, but completely new at the same time. I feel like it was supposed to play out differently than it did, but you didn't know what you wanted and I was just too stubborn.
I remember when things ended the first time, and I was okay with it. I mean I wasn't okay with it but I was okay. It sucked to say the least because it was like I had finally given you the chance you've been pushing for the last few years, and you just gave it up. Remember when you texted me after you started a new relationship and said "I know I screwed you over big time, and I'm sorry for that but this is what needs to be done." At least you knew, but of course you hit me up again as soon as your other plans didn't work out, and I gave you another chance. I don't know why, I guess I was just too stupid and naive to realize you were just gonna screw me over again.
Which is fine, you're not the first boy to hurt my feelings or break my heart. I just don't understand why you wasted either of our time. I feel like five months is a long time to pretend to enjoy someone's company, but what do I know. I know I looked at whatever we were differently than you did. I looked at it like it was going somewhere and you looked at it like it was a joke. Again, totally fine.
When I found out about this girl, I didn't know what to say. I should have known the moment you started blocking me again. Your typical pattern that you do when you get a new one. As I listened to all of things you were doing with her that didn't sound like the guy I knew, a million thoughts ran through my head. "Why isn't that me?" "It's probably better that isn't not me?" "Why is he different with her?" But as long as you're happy I guess that's all that matters. Right?
This letter is the closing chapter for me. My own personal closure, I guess, because I certainly didn't get any from you. I can't keep holding on to the idea that maybe one day we'll work out, or maybe one day you'll see that I was good for you. I don't think I want that anymore. Sometimes it just takes a little while to see that the person you think you're right for isn't always necessarily right for you. And I think you made me cry more than you made me smile/laugh so how right could your really be?
I hope you have a happy life ahead of you, and I hope that I won't be a part of it in any sense.
XOXO,
Me
