What is the gray area of love you ask?
Well most of us have been there and may not have even realized it. Stuck between more than friends, but not in a relationship. The "I miss you, come over" and then pretend that there are no feelings. The "I really like you, but I'm not ready for anything". The last minute plans, unexpected phones calls, and late night lonely texts.
The thing is you were probably okay with it at first because deep down we are all scared to be with someone. Scared to open up, let someone else in and give ourselves to someone else. Sometimes it is just easier, its less commitment. But after a while, you realize how you really feel, but are too afraid to open up and be honest about it. You are not in love yet, but you are interested, you want to take the next step. You are probably the cool, laid back girl or guy, who just goes with the flow. You do not want to seem like the person who needs to have their texts replied to, or be asked on an actual date. Why complicate things right? Wrong.
This is the grey area of love. The complicated what is this, and where is it going phase. You feel like being the laid back person is okay. Deep down though you need the validation of what this is, and you wish that the other person wanted you as much as you wanted them. It sometimes makes you feel like you are not good enough, or worthy enough. This may sound harsh, but I have learned that when someone says they are not ready right now, but maybe later, there really saying it's probably not going to happen. They may not even realize it when they say it, but it's normally how it turns out. If they actually wanted to be with you, and not jeopardize that, they'd be with you and you wouldn't be left feeling unsure.
So it's time. It's time to move on and say goodbye to the grey area of love. It's not always easy, it many be painful, but its worth it. It is time to stop bottling up your emotions, justifying late night messages, and settling for love that is far less than what you deserve. Remember that what you allow is what is going to continue. So if you are not happy or content, it is time to change what you allow. You deserve so much more than somebody who cannot decide what they want. You deserve more than trying to suppress your feelings for someone. And most importantly you deserve someone who will choose you, again and again, every day, any time of the day. Someone who will realize your worth and will not leave you in the grey area of love. A love that is unquestionable.
