Sometimes we feel like we've failed God and we are undeserving of his love, but it's crazy how important it is to actually let him love us. God wants to love us. He wants to be our comforter. When we don't allow him to love us He becomes jealous of whatever might be in the way of his love.
In high school, I dated guy after guy looking for a void of love in my heart to be filled and until I fully submitted to the Lord that void remained. I finally threw away the love I thought was real and true and traded it in for a real unconditional love. Give yourself time to get to know yourself in Christ before you look for Mr. or Mrs. Right. I know that's not easy, dating is fun and interesting, in fact, I didn't spend much time "single" at all before Christ. So when I made the decision to fully submit I had to grow a backbone and learn to be on my own. I didn't really know who I was without a boyfriend. I had no identity until the Lord gave me my new identity, and that was the princess of a king. This time to grow in your faith, to grow in God's love, to allow him to teach you how to love and be loved is so crucial. So that when it is time to meet the one He has created just for you, you are ready and prepared.
When we think about the list of all the things we want our spouse to possess, we become overwhelmed because some of our wants aren't really necessary. The Lord will give you exactly the person you need and until then he will take care of you just fine. But while you're single let God love you. We are romantic creatures and yes God created us that way but don't forget we are created in his image. He is the same way -- He wants love and whether your love language is gifts or quality time, the Lord is there to give you that. Maybe it's through the way the sun lights up the sky that day or the rain on the tin roof that helps you fall asleep, those are gifts the Lord has given you. Quality time: it is so important to spend quality time with God just like in any relationship. It's how you build your relationship with him up. It's how He will show you his heart and also show you your own. The Lord needs that time from you with no distractions, so that He can truly show you and remind you how much He loves you.
A God-centered relationship is worth the wait, but two people get there by investing their own hearts in God first. Be praying for your husband or wife that their heart for God will match yours. Pray that when you meet your relationship would cause you to grow closer to the Lord. Trust me when I say you will have the most beautiful love story if you just let God love you -- it isn't selfish to only worry about you and God until He shows you you're ready. A relationship that grows from Christ where you can pray together, worship and passionately pursue God together is ALWAYS worth the wait.
