Friendships are a pretty common thing...well for most people. Usually, kids have one or two best friends and then a group of friends, then the rest are acquaintances. As you get older and wiser those friendships adjust, and you figure out who you can and cannot trust. By the time you graduate college, you should have the friends that you're going to have for the rest of your life. On the other hand, for some people it's not that simple, like me for example.
In elementary school, I started out like any other kid, I had lots of friends and I was always invited to birthday parties and play dates, and everything was great. When I got to middle school, a bunch of the friends that I made in elementary school went to another school (if not, left the city or state), so I was lonely, but I still remained true to myself and overtime I made new friends.
High School was difficult during my freshman year. The 85%of the friends I made in Middle School went to another high school, so that left me feeling lonely again and impressionable and just wanting someone's approval and acceptance. So I tried to get involved with so many extra curricular activities like any normal kid so that you could feel accepted. I tried Student Government, Wrestling, Debate Team, and I was also playing baseball with a bunch of the kids who I went to school with (But that goes back to whole acquaintance thing).
So lets backtrack, I have been playing baseball since I was like 5 or 6, while also playing basketball, but baseball was my love. I loved baseball so much that I started playing rookie ball, and loved that so much that I went up and played Minor League ball and by this time it was like my 6th-grade year. I just kept playing making friends but most of them were either younger than me or if they were my age or older we didn't go to the same schools so we only saw each other during baseball season and my minor league team had a lot of success, so that was nice to be achieving so much winning two straight league championships and even going undefeated my last year in that league. By the time I finished playing Minor League baseball, I was a freshman in high school and about to move up to the next league which they called it Babe Ruth. It is also where I'd have a chance to play with the guys I had gone to school with. Babe Ruth was different because from anything I had the experience they threw a lot harder and faster. It's not that they were necessarily better than me, they just got to play more. Here' s something about Kentucky baseball, its very political and if you don't have a father who's a coach or you aren't in their little clique you won't get to play much. So, that means I ended up on the bench a lot either not getting to play or barely ever getting to play. I wouldn't have minded so much if our team was actually good, but we were terrible. I knew that if this is what this league was like I knew actually how the high school team would be like. I did try out for the high school team during my 8th grade year and I didn't make it, which I can understand but after that I didn't try out again because I saw right through what they were doing; that's why in High School i tried to get involved in other things didn't really work out like I wanted it to though. My sophomore year I started going to a church named Southland in Lexington, Kentucky. I was already apart of a church, but my main church didn't really have anyone my age in it. So I kind of started getting bored, and falling asleep among other things. At Southland it was different I started making friends immediately, and it really made me brighter and really made me looking forward to the week among other things. It really helped me build up some confidence in opening up not being so closed off. I was building some really good friendships and then once I graduated they just stopped. Some stayed but most just stopped associating with me and the thing with all these "friendships" I don't think I've done anything for them to just stop, and it sucks but I can't really let it hold me back I just have to keep moving forward and hope things go up which I know they will I just have to be patient.
To be continued.
