September marks National Suicide Prevention Month, and I’d like to dedicate this article to my beautiful best friend.
To my best friend,
I miss you. I miss the endless fun you supplied me with. I miss being able to text you whenever I needed anything (which was mostly just help with my math homework). I miss the light you shined upon each person you met. I miss hearing all the crazy stories about you. I miss looking into your deep blue eyes. I miss knowing that you would do great in the world.
I wish things didn’t end like this. You were a young, talented, smart, kind, compassionate, loving young man with a full life ahead of you. It’s hard for me to understand why things happened the way they did. It’s hard for me to understand how we’re supposed to believe in God, yet He allowed such a horrible thing to happen. It’s hard for me to accept this as my reality. But this is my life, and there’s nothing I can do to change what already happened.
There’s just a few things I would like you to know. I want you to know that I’m truly sorry that you felt alone in your weakest moment. I want you to know that I will work every minute of everyday for the rest of my life to make sure that nobody else I care about feels alone when they’re weak. I want you to know that you are loved and missed, not just by me, but by everybody who knew you. I want you to know how much of an impact you left on so many people’s lives. I want you to know that your legacy will live on forever. I want you to know that no matter how many days or years pass, I will still be thinking about you everyday.
I love and miss you.
To anybody who feels like there’s no way out, just know that you are worth it and you are loved. There's always another option. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is 1-800-273-8255.