I Don't Know What I'm Doing

I have absolutely no idea what I’m doing with my life and that’s ok. I’m 21-years-old and for some reason, I’m being told that I’m supposed to have it figured out. Heck, I don’t even know what I’m going to eat for lunch most days so how could I know what my life will look like after I graduate college?

Right now, my only hope for my future is that I am doing something that I love. And to do something I love, I am exploring subjects and activities I enjoy. People constantly tell you to follow your passions, but it’s kind of hard to do that when you don’t exactly know what your passions are. I know my interests and I know my dislikes, but are my likes really my passions? So as a 21-year-old who has absolutely no idea what she is doing with her life, I am choosing to take it day by day and discover what truly makes me happy. And I’m doing this by taking the time to do more things that I enjoy.

We as a society are constantly being told to do certain things because that’s what is normal. Graduate high school. Go to college. Find a job. Get married. Have a family. Isn’t that the routine? Don’t get me wrong, if you want to do that, then go for it. But I don’t think that’s my dream and that’s ok too. One day I hope to get married and have a family but right now I want to travel. I want to discover what the world has to offer. I want to be creative, work, and do something that I’m passionate about. I don’t want a job that I half-ass every week because it pays well. I want to work at something I truly enjoy. Sure, I might not find my perfect job right away, but I’m willing to change career paths a million times if that means doing something I love for the rest of my life.

But hey, I can’t predict the future so maybe my dreams could change. I think that’s the best part about life. Our lives can change at any second and we have no idea what’s coming. It’s scary and exciting all at once. The only thing I can do is be the best version of me each day because it could all be taken away at any moment. I have hope and optimism for my future and the world’s future. As long as I am aware, grateful, and positive about my life it will all work out. People may think I am naïve for thinking this way. But as long as I am working hard, challenging myself and exploring life, it will work out. It always does.