You know exactly what to say to make sure I give a little more. Then, as soon as I do, you pull away again. It’s like a revolving door. You get in when you want, and you get out when you want. I cling to every word you say, hoping that today is the day you decide to commit. For a while, I was ok with pretending like there was nothing going on. I was ok with telling people they were crazy when they said we liked each other. I was ok with playing your games. Then something happened, I fell for you.

Whenever I love someone, I love with everything in me. I wanted you so much that I ignored all of the unhealthy parts of our relationship. I realized that we’ve been going on like this for a little over a year and then it hit me. I deserve someone who will love me, for me. I deserve someone who isn’t ashamed to tell someone they like me. I deserve to have someone who will treat me with the same love and respect that I treat them with. I deserve someone who I will pray with me, and serve Jesus with me. I know you are capable of doing this, but you aren’t ready. I know that you feel the same things I am feeling for you or you wouldn’t continue to seek more than a friendship with me. I know you are scared of the risk and getting hurt. I know that’s why you pull away. I’m scared too. The only difference is, I’m willing to take all of the risks, if it means I get to love you everyday. I really thought you were the one.

I can’t make you love me back. I can’t make you commit and I don’t want to. I want you to love me because you choose to, because you want to. As hard as it may be, I’m saying goodbye to us. I cannot continue to wait on you to love me. I’m missing out on so much because I refused to let go of you. So, with tears in my eyes, and sadness in my heart, this is my last farewell to what we could have been. I sincerely hope you find someone who means the world to you, and when you do, I hope you tell them every single day for the rest of your lives. I’m finally finished waiting on you.