Dear Depression,
You have plagued my life for too long. You hide in corners and jump out when I don't want you to. You attack me at the least opportune times. And frankly, I am tired of it. You have controlled my life for too long. You have been there for years, and it is time I evict you and welcome the happiness you once stole from me back into my life.
You have taken so many precious lives from this world. How could you do that? How can you plague the minds of young children and get away with it? Not everyone has the strength to push you aside and see the good in life. Why do you have to feed doubt into the minds of young adults who already hate their lives? How could you feed off the lives of innocent souls? You make things worse, and you know? I think things would be better if you just didn't exist.
You took so much from me, not just my happiness, but my childhood. I never went out because you always planted seeds of doubt into my head. You were what caused me to become this shell of a girl I used to know. How could you? You made me fall victim to you. I started to compare myself to the girls around me - they were prettier, they were better at this and better at that. Worst of all - you made me think this world was better off without me.
You pushed me over the edge. You were the one that caused my friends and family to worry - maybe there was something good I have taken away from you. You pushed me so far that I really tried to make this world a better place without me. That caused the people around me to worry and get me help. I was always stronger than you and I will make those around me stronger than you.
You can't hurt them like you hurt me. I still have scars from our relationship. That abusive relationship where you just made me hate myself. That relationship where you left me cold and lifeless, crying in the dark. That relationship where you left me bruised and battered. You want to know something? I will use these scars to help other people. My story is not over because you entered m,y life and my story will not be ending anytime soon because you can't take an eviction notice.
I don't know why you keep coming back. I am stronger than you, I will keep winning. I have the support of my family and friends. They won't let me go back that dark path you took me down again. You will not prevail in my life, so I wish you would stop trying. No one will let you hurt me again. I have too much going for me to let you control my life again. I have become bigger, stronger and better than you. I promise to help others get over you. You can not plague the mind of today's youth forever. We are not just victims in your game.
Hope you had a nice stay in my life. This is your eviction notice.
Your Host for Too Long,
Allison
To the readers: If you ever feel like ending your life, please call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1 (800) 273-8255. Here is their website as well.
