They are everywhere and they make you want to puke, cry, and smile all at the same time. They have the perfect compilation of words and funny gifs that somehow express exactly how you feel towards your best buddy, your other half, your person.
As my best friend, you don't deserve one of these. You don't deserve some beautiful, articulate article that clearly expresses how important and amazing you are in some other person's words. No, you don't deserve some cliche meme or standardized sentence about your significance in my life. You do deserve to know why you don’t deserve another best friend letter.
You make me want to cry.
You make me sick.
You don't always support me.
You make me self-conscious.
You're clingy.
You distract me.
You make me mad.
You make me want to cry.
I've never felt comfortable enough around another person to openly cry or completely express my emotions. You make it ok to be vulnerable. I'm never worried that you're going to judge me or that I'll scare you aware. There is a connection between the two of us that is indescribable.
You make me sick.
Between your mom's incredible mac and cheese and how hard you make me laugh my stomach is in knots most of the time you're around. I would never want to finish an entire pizza with anyone else.
You won't support all my choices.
You'll tell me that that guy I'm dating is an asshole even when I think he's the one. You'll make me buy the crop top because you know it looks good even if I can't see it at that moment and you'd stop me from dying my hair that horrible color again. I never have to worry about making tough decisions because I know you're always there for me to bounce ideas off of. I know you won’t always be behind my choices, but you will always have my back.
You make me self-conscious.
You remind me how great I am even when I'm too busy crying to you over the phone about how my life is falling apart. You bring me back to reality. You put things into perspective for me and make me see that my perception isn't always accurate. You make me own up to my mistakes. How many soul searching conversations have we had late at night or while sitting in that field by the church at your old house? You make me want to be a better person.
You're clingy.
Asking me how my date went while I'm still on it? Standard practice. No one else understands our weird codependent relationship, but I wouldn't have it any other way. You know every detail of my life and I know every one of yours. Sometimes people might think we over-share, but I think they're wrong. Not gonna lie, on occasion the depth of our relationship has made me question my sexuality. There is a tiny part of me that hopes our pact to get married if we're single at 40 happens.
You post so much crap on my timeline.
I am constantly distracted by the funny pictures and statuses that you tag me in. All the cliche best friend articles you tag me in, and let's be honest we tag each other in everyone we can find, make me miss you even more when I don’t get to see you everyday. Each post or comment reminds me of a memory or a special aspect of our friendship and it reassures me that even though we go to different schools, our bond is stronger than ever.
You make me mad
When you can't see how amazing you are I just want to punch you in your perfect face. When you cry, your eyes turn a clear crystal color that would make any Disney Princess jealous. You can roll out of bed, throw on clothes and still look flawless. You have this incredible wanderlust that is only matched by your devotion to your friends and family. No one is or ever will be allowed to bring my best friend down. That includes yourself.
You make me question what I know
You have helped me to redefine the term family. You're so much more than just my friend. I feel sister isn't even strong enough of a word. You've proven to me time and time again that I can trust you with anything. And I do trust you with my life, something I've never been able to say about anyone else.
You make me get sappy and gross.
All I can say is thank you. I love you and I hope this makes you cry.
