Dear suicide,
You have become a well-known, unwanted, part of my life over the past year. You have taken lives that weren't yours to take. You have taken the lives of people who were made to be great. People who had talent, ambition, respect, kindness, and every other quality that makes up a great person.
I can't wrap my head around why you did this. You took the people who mattered most in our lives. You took them and you ruined them. But the thing is you didn't just ruin them... you ruined me too. When you took them out of my life I was the one who had to deal with it. Me and everyone else had to pick up the broken pieces you left behind. You broke them... and you broke me. You took a life and didn't even care. You're a monster.
You made it seem like it was okay for someone to choose their own fate. YOU decided that the person who was going to make a difference in the world was no longer good enough... but they were. They were more than good enough. They were better than any of could have ever hoped to be.
The person that you have taken from us was beautiful and incredible. They were great.
But despite all the pain and grief that you have caused us... you gave me a new appreciation of the life around me. You made me realize that life is short and unexpected. The only thing guaranteed in life is death. There is an existentialist statement that says "The realist moment in life is death." In a way I think I believe that, and you are the one that taught that to me. You taught me just how real death is.
I personally saw you pick and choose the lives that you wanted to take, and the lives you wanted to ruin by taking them. I saw how easy it was for you to creep into somebody's life, because I watched as you crept into mine.
You came into my world claiming the lives of those I love... and attempting to take my own. You, with your devilish ways and great persuasion ,tried to ruin me... but I couldn't let you. I watched as you destroyed the lives around me. I watched you break up families, friendships, relationships... I saw what you did to the people who loved your victims and I refuse to be one. I refuse to be a victim of your dictatorship. I refuse to let you continue to hurt and break the ones that I love.
You are nothing if we make you nothing. You will no longer exist if we kill you like you killed the ones we loved. I will make it my soul purpose in life to make sure you will no longer hurt another person. It may take a while... but it will be possible. One by one we will reduce the number of your victims until it's back where it belongs... zero.
You will not defeat us anymore. We will be stronger than you one day.
Love,
The person you should have never messed with.
