Anytime you go through a heartbreak people will feed you the cliché line of everything is going to be okay and it's all happening for a reason. We know that eventually it will be okay and we know this is all for a reason but as girls we are going crazy in our mind and we do not care. I think it is absolutely okay to lose your self and be crazy after heartbreak. Relationships are complicated and hard work and 9 times out of 10 it is us girls putting in the work. We invest in boys we believe them and we actually think they will keep the promises they make because we take risk cause a life without risk is no life at all. I may get hurt and I may be completely out of my mind sometimes but I am becoming a stronger person with out me even knowing it.

After a being dumped there is a process and it’s different for everyone. Having your heart broken is one of the hardest comebacks because then you start putting walls up you didn’t have before and insecurities start coming to the surface. We get this feeling of being irrelevant because some boy waltzed into our life and then did the tango out. We hate ourselves and we hate every happy person. We are in physical pain. It’s a weight on our chest and it feels like the feeling will never go away. As a fellow crazy girl, it is okay to go insane. Your ex-boyfriend may call you names your girlfriends your mom whom ever but it is okay. If you need to completely lose yourself to find your self then do it. Don’t worry about how you are supposed to act and how you are supposed to be. Do whatever you need to do to get you thru that day and do not make any apologizes because somebody hurt you. They manipulated you and took away your hopes and dreams.

So ladies I encourage you to scream sing Taylor Swift and take baths while listening to depressing music that makes you cry while drinking straight from the bottle of wine. Make a scene at the bar when he shows up, get on stage and sing a cliché heartbreak karaoke song. Drunk call him at 3 am and ruin his night, send him drunk snapchats until he blocks you, play his game against him, make a pic collages of his new slam piece and send it to your girlfriends. Say mean things about his male parts and then still have a few relapses of nights with him. Stuff your face with ice cream while looking at your old photos, don’t shave, make sure he hears from you everyday just to be the reminder in the back of his head. Send a desperate text message or maybe five, blow up his phone about how much it hurts and sucks. Make sappy insta post and depressing tweets. Do whatever you need to do to make the pain go away. Do not worry about being judged because it really doesn’t matter because they don’t understand what is going on inside you. I do. So be crazy and lose yourself because the best part is you end up stronger as a person and learning things about yourself you didn’t know before. And you also make some pretty funny memories to laugh about later. I promise you will wake up one day and find yourself, so then you give up the crazy until next time and start your new beginning just as I am currently doing right now in my life.