I was always the type of person to copy my friends' lifestyles. I didn't have my own identity, at least I thought I had one. I would always do what my peers wanted me to do, I behaved like them. Mostly everything I have done in the past was to pleased others, make sure they liked what they saw or in other words dressed accordingly to them. I remember there was a time in my life I didn't know anything about myself; I was not aware of the damage I was causing myself. I never thought there was something wrong with me. On the contrary; I was fooled enough to believe that that was who I am, and everything was normal. I never had a voice, my opinions did not have value to them. I was mute, my silence was so profound that expressing myself was a big challenge and still is to this day.

I was a clown, a blind person in a jungle with no direction or instruction. I was played, vulnerable with no defense, used and mistreated. I am not going to sit here typing, just to blame the people from my past because some of the things that happened were known unconsciously. I never took the time to think and examine how I was portraying myself to others. Hence, I was naive and super smart, but I wanted to fit in so bad that I neglected my own self and true values.

Now, I see things differently. I do not allow myself to be my own victim. I am on the journey of finding myself, and with confidence I can say out loud I am loving and embracing the woman that I am. I am still learning and so far I know that I love to walk alone in the streets, shopping alone, I love the color red, I enjoy cuisine and I love nature. I do not compare myself to others anymore, I do not compete with others; I focus on my inner self. I love adventure, I love to try stuff and I dislike trap songs.