This week, I hit the big two-zero. I am fucking twenty years old. At first, I felt the same. Actually, I said to my best friend, "I feel like I am an eighteen-year-old who just left their mother's house." I kind of expected a big change, like a big feeling, but I didn't get one. It just felt like another day.

But this past couple of weeks, I've had loads of anxiety--anxiety about becoming twenty years old. When I was little, I thought of people in their twenties as old as hell. I have been stressing myself out trying to figure out what I want to do for the rest of my life. Become a writer and make no money, continue on my path to becoming apart of marketing team (sounds boring right?), or graduate and do whatever comes to mind. Not being a teen anymore has made me put a lot of pressure on myself to figure my life out. But in all actuality, we don't know whats going on. Let alone know what we want out of life.

So I decided to redefine what twenty means to me. Being twenty means freedom--freedom to explore, create and do whatever I want to do. Being twenty means to find yourself. To find out what you actually like and who you like. Being twenty means to make countless mistakes and to learn them of course, or keep making the same mistakes until I get right. Being twenty means to have fun; to do the things I dreamed of doing. Being twenty means to not be settled. To dream BIG dream and start on the path where my dreams can come true. I do not want to settle in the way of life that I am experiencing now. Who wants to live the same way all their life? One quote that always sticks to me is "A man who views the world the same at fifty as he did at twenty has wasted thirty years of his life." by Muhammad Ali.

Your age does have to define where you should be in life. People take different routes, and that's okay.