I need money. I usually need money, but this summer I need more money. Enough money to pay for most of my rent for Cleveland next year - which is quite a bit.

As I said in one of my earlier articles, I had to fill out a bunch of applications for a bunch of different places to find another summer job.

One of the places I applied was Discount Drug Mart.

I started working right after Memorial Day, and I thought the timing would make it a little less busy. I was wrong.

After working 8 a.m. to 2 p.m. at JCPenney, I took a nap, and went to train at Drug Mart from 4 p.m. to 8 p.m.

It was surprisingly crazy for over half of my shift, and I felt awful because I didn't know how to do anything or how to really help; I was forced to just stand and watch so that I could learn how to work the register.

The last time I trained for a new job was in September of last year, when I started working in the dorms at Cleveland State University.

Before then, the last time I trained for an actual retail job was at JCPenney almost two years ago. You can say I forgot about what it feels like to be “the new girl."

I forgot how awful it is.

Really, I felt helpless, guilty, and like a burden to my coworkers. I know this is irrational, but I couldn't help it; I've always been the one who's ahead of the game at work, so it was very different during my training shift.

The whole time I felt awkward and unnecessary, and I wanted to fast-forward to later on when I won't need help at the register or in general.

Even so, I know training is necessary and part of the protocol. I've just forgotten how incredibly awful it feels to be the new person in that scenario.

Hopefully, I won't have to be in this situation many more times throughout my life. I'll still make sure to take it easy on the trainees from now on.