In college, it is rare that you see couples that have been together for over a year. People seem to be more invested in the "strictly dating" type of scene where everything is super laid back and casual with no commitment. If you are one of the ones in an actual relationship, people start to assume and ask you things over time.
"When do you think he will pop the question?" is the one people have asked me with two and a half years of dating someone. I would be lying if I said it did not cross my mind, but I have also thought about what my life could potentially be like with another person. What if the one who I have been serious with for two and a half years isn't the one?
I recently moved into my sorority house with some of my best friends in the entire world. These girls have seen me at my worst and my best and I am more than excited to be living just down the hall from these people. While getting settled in, and listening to everyone's summer and future plans, I realized that even though I am just a junior in college, the future is quickly approaching.
I have decided the best person to love right now is myself. I need to be the person who rewards myself with a new pair of shoes for getting an A on that difficult research paper. I need to be the one who goes out with my friends on a Friday night and make memories we will cherish forever. I need to be the one who motivates and holds myself accountable, so I can be successful in my future. I am young, talented, smart, and beautiful and it is not because someone tells me that everyday, it is because I am confident in myself.
I want to settle down one day and have three beautiful children with a cozy house and a husband who brings me flowers everyday. But that is not my focus right now. Maybe one day he will be the one at the alter when I finally say "I do," or maybe it will be someone else. But, whoever that man will be, does not determine who I am now, or my future.
I have so much going for me and so much potential to do amazing things in this world. This is the time of my life where I need to take in the world around me and discover who I am. As much as a part of me would still love to be that young girl in school who is only worrying about who will ask them to the prom, I realize that I am past that. I need to worry about real life issues, and that I am the only person who can do that for myself.
No one knows what the next few months will bring. It's scary being in this alone. I know that in order to achieve the life I want, and make the most of my experiences, it is something that I have to do. I cannot wait to see the journey that lies ahead of me.





















