Do you know how contradicting it makes me sound when I say that I am a planner, but I am the biggest procrastinator?
It's true, however, I really enjoy planning my life out - organizing all the little things and all the big things. But, a product of my own demise, I do not have my shit together, as I'm sure many 20-somethings can say. You know that I-don't-even-know-what's-going-on-in-my-own-life-most-of-the-time feeling?
When I am assigned an eight-page research paper, I plan it all out in my Lilly Pulitzer planner; I write down how many pages I'll write on which days, I plan out my topics and sub-topics, all the things necessary to successfully write an essay... But the days that I'm supposed to write there's always something that comes up: new episodes of Orange Is the New Black, free pizza in the library or an online sale at PINK.
That research paper is a metaphor for my whole life.
My room? It's a mess, but I like to call it an organized mess because I know where everything is - I know where my sweatshirt is in that pile of clothes on my futon.
And don't get me started on the numerous Pinterest projects I've pinned but haven't started. Salads in mason jars, an adorable canvas idea, DIY gel manicure, and not to mention all the "Lose Your Love Handles" and "5 Days to Jiggle Free Lean Legs" workouts - all pins that are neatly organized in my crafty Pinterest boards that I plan to do, but I just haven't gotten around to yet. All that pizza and OITNB is getting in the way.
Even when it comes to going places and getting ready, I just can't get my shit together. I'll admit it, I'm usually late to everything in life because after I shower I lay around in my towel on my phone for an hour or two. Usually pinning crafts and exercises that I'll never do. I have a specific routine to getting ready, but being a procrastinator means dragging out that routine as long as I possibly can.
I make lists daily. I make all kinds of lists, especially lists about what I want to accomplish for the day and how to be productive. But do I really need to get my laundry done today or can it wait for tomorrow after I've binge watched a whole season Grey's Anatomy today? I mean, I can last one more day with no clothes.
The thing about being a procrastinator and a planner is that I know how to get my shit together, but I just wait to do so. But it's all okay because I'm only a 20-something and I have the rest of my life to get my shit together... Spoken like a true procrastinator, huh? So I'll keep planning my life, I'll just keep swimming, and maybe one day the procrastination wire will sizzle out. Maybe one day.
