Questions to ask yourself when coming out of a dissociative episode:
What time is it?
What am I wearing?
What's that smell?
Oh, it’s just the new air freshener
What time is it?
Am I tired? When was the last time I slept?
Should I take a shower or will I have another episode?
Probably
I need to do my laundry.
When did I write that paper?
I turned it in?
Oh well…
What happened while I wasn’t?
I’ve watched everything that David Attenborough narrates on Netflix.
My water bottle is still full.
Did I drink and refill it?
Probably not.
What time is it?
A few days ago my little sister called me,
She's having anxiety and panic attacks.
She doesn’t know whats wrong,
She's trying to push it all down.
If she pushes it all down she’ll have something to stand on.
What do I show her?
Once all of my sisters and I sat down and made a pact we would always reach for our dreams.
Do I show her my forgotten dreams?
Do I show her my pages of mental analysis?
Do I show her how to clean her face up so it looks like she wasn’t crying?
Do I show her how to make others comfortable?
What do I tell her?
She once told me that she thought one of the saddest things must to be to grow up with a mentally ill parent.
Do I tell her she may be that parent?
Do I tell her that her dream of being a doctor may not be what she needs to be reaching for right now?
Do I tell her she needs to start wearing a watch at all times because time becomes so important?
Do I tell her that if she wants to go to a party she can’t smoke because THC triggers anxiety?
I think I had an Amazon binge while I was gone.
I wonder what I got?
