I love December. Being home from school, the hustle and bustle of Christmas time, and just a warm, loving atmosphere are only a few things that help make the cold, snowy weather bearable.
But when December hits, it's also the realization that New Year's is coming around, which means yet again I'll make a resolution only to be broken yet again. I'm not sure what it is, the reason why I can never actually follow my resolution. Maybe I'm setting my goals too unrealistic or maybe I just lack the motivation to actually follow through. Whatever it is, it doesn't bother me. Maybe it should care, I mean, I am aiming to improve my life, but hey, if my life's not getting any worse, no harm no foul right? According to Forbes, only 8% actually complete their resolutions so I'm not feeling so bad anymore. So with New Years only a few short days, here's what I (along with many others I assume) have failed to do.
Go to the gym more
I swear this year I'll go to the gym more or eat better or drink less...blah, blah, blah it's the same spiel year after year on top of pretty much everyone's list. But yet here I am, stuffing my face with god knows what just mere days after my list is done. Honestly, it's hard to start a routine if you've lived your life otherwise. So in the beginning, like many others, I'll actually go to the gym once or twice a week. But sooner or later, I find myself making excuses, aka it's too cold or oh I can't miss the finale of scream queens, and weeks pass and my shoes are collecting dust in the bottom of my shoe bin. So yes, I did fail this. But I don't see this as too bad, I acknowledged I could be skinner or could eat healthier but I'm not at a point where it's a requirement. So setting this is more like a motivation in the future if I want- I have the capacity to do it, but it's not urgent.
Do better in school
With internships around the corner, there's the looming pressure of improving my GPA and succeeding in my major. It's hard to do this. Sometimes I don't test well and often things come up that unfortunately do take priority over my school work- it's life, it happens. It's silly for me to hope to do better in school. I'll always be a __ grade student. I hate the library and physically there's only so much I can do. My grades turn out the same each time and that's ok- sometimes putting in more work doesn't always give you the outcomes you desire.
Be more involved
I blame the copious amounts of homework and just the stress of being a college student for this one. So while we're at it, let's say I failed at being less stressed as well.
Find a relationship
Coming out of freshman year and into sophomore year, I was done with the hookup culture. Like any girl in love with rom coms and cheesy love songs, of course I wanted a relationship. But writing down my goal was much easier of achieving it. But honestly, there's no one to blame for this failing. Things happen for a reason, people come into your life at the right exact time. I learned forcing things won't make me happy so ultimately I wouldn't put myself into a relationship just to say I was in one. Of course every year I'll put this on my list. It's something I desire, I know I could love someone with every ounce of my being. But I'll never force it, when it happens, it happens.
Save money
Over the summer, I worked enough to build up a small little stockpile to help me survive the first semester. And at first it did. But with midterms and late night cram seshes I found myself dipping more and more into my savings. Insomnia, quesadillas at Kimmel, or yet another set of sorority letters...you name it, I probably bought it. So to rationale, I told myself I bought these out of emergency. And hey, I'm working over break so that can easily be replenished. I'm working hard, I deserve it.
Be a better person
Now someone please explain to me what this means cause I'm still trying to figure it out.
So in the end, I'm probably just making excuses upon excuses for why I can't do things. But that's ok, there's always next year right? (insert smirk)
