Tear drops wants to fall
I want to come clean
There’s sadness in the heart
Everyone around are content
They automatically assume the same for me
Picture, picture, smile for the picture
Captions will “prove” that all is well
Tear drops wants to fall
Please, no one look this way
Someone notices the frowns
But doesn’t know what to say
We join together in hopes for conversation
My body language describes how I feel
Eventually giving in for the sake of strong tension
Once more, you have seen my dissatisfaction
Tear drops wants to fall
Overwhelmed with the company that surrounds me
“Our” discussions were so prevalent
They were seeking attention
Their words were empty
Escaping the crowd was a temporary option
It’ll create some time to clear my mind
No one will find me here
Tear drops are falling down
Now I cleared my throat just on time
It’s overwhelming to be in this place
This is not where I belong
You have now caught my attention
Have seen my wet eyes
You have yet to know my reasons
For wanting to cry
Relief I felt once the gathering was over
To finally be alone
Away from the distractions
To this place I call my own
Tear drops have fallen down
This is a poem dedicated to those who suffer from social anxiety. I personally know someone who suffers from this particular anxiety and becomes easily overwhelmed even in small social settings. This is a poem inspired by that person to know that they are not alone.
This poem was written during a big ceremony. Everyone acted strangely because they wanted to fit in with each other. From past experiences, needing to fit in was the common entity to feel and so it was often done out of desperation.
"We join together in hopes for conversation...Eventually giving in for the sake of strong tension.." these lines explain how once a group of people came together to form a social gathering, the character eventually "gives in for the sake of strong tension" stating that she would rather not be part of it, but knew it would draw even more attention toward her if she hadn't.
The lines "They were seeking attention...Their words were empty," explain how the gathering consisted of those who seek attention to themselves and how their words have no meaning.
The poem ends as she sighs in relief that the mandatory gathering is over and she is back in her comfort zone; alone to reflect on herself and to release all of her nervousness that she held on to.
When someone is going through society anxiety, it can be tough. Lots of emotions are playing out all at once and while all that is occurring, it is hard to stay focused. The most important thing to remember while going through this is to always try to stay calm and find peace within yourself.
