Hopefully you will never have to miss the person you always want to talk to, but if they are gone then you know what I mean when I say that you would give anything to be able to just have one more conversation over dinner. One more time where you could give them a hug, have them help you with problems or simply just be there to listen to you. You miss the way they used to look at you and the way they cared for you, the way that they understood you like nobody else did.

Dear You,

I want to yell and scream every time that I wake up in the morning and remember that you are not here. When you were with me I was always the happiest, mom couldn't even put me in a bad mood when I was with you. The times I miss you the most are of course holidays. Christmas, Thanksgiving, and birthdays are definitely not the same without your bright cheery smile lighting up the entire room. Most holidays I visit you, some times I can even feel you wrapping your wings around me since God has to have made you an angel up there in heaven. I cry every time I'm there, not just because I'm sad but I am happy, or talking out my problems (even though this one way conversation is not really working to well).

I want to tell you that I am doing great things and I will continue to do great things because that is all you ever wanted me to do. You have missed my first sport game, my high school graduation, and going to be missing my college graduation. So In every aspect of my life I strive to be the best because you always told me I could be. I clung on to all of the words that you used to tell me because they are all I have left besides a few rings and pictures that do not allow me to hear you beautiful voice.

I miss being able to have an escape from reality. Whenever we would hangout or I would come over it would feel like time was irrelevant, it was never wasted time when we were hanging out because we enjoyed each others company. We could talk for hours on end, you would put up with my odd questions and even entertain them at times and make me feel as if I was not always the weird girl. You loved me for who I was no questions asked.

All I want is to tell you one last time that I love you and you are awesome. I would not be the person that I am today if you were not in my life. You made such an impact in my life that I think of you every single day. That you cross my mind when I am at my worst, best, my craziest and I only love you more and more each time I think of you. Thank you for making me a better person and thank you for loving me for infinity.