If there is one lesson that I have learned in the past three years, it would be that it is is OK to walk away from people. Not everyone is meant to be in your life forever. Just because someone is your best friend now, does not mean that they will always be your best friend. I have made the difficult choice to walk away from people time and time again, and this is an open letter to all of them.
How are you? I am doing well and I hope that you are too. Just because I walked away doesn't mean that I stopped caring about you and that I would ever wish you unwell. I care more than you think, I want the best for you, and I want to see you succeed. I am still cheering you on, just from the sideline and not from the field.
There is not a single moment of our friendship that I regret. You taught me so many things and will forever be grateful for those lessons. Thank you for that.
You were placed in my life for a reason. That reason might have been to learn to love myself the way I am, to accept things that I cannot change, to laugh it off, and to not take people for granted. The most important lesson that I took away from our friendship is, that I have the power to change my life.
With that said, that is why I walked away. I needed to change my life. I grew and I am still growing and working towards being the best person I can be. Whenever I tried to picture who would be in my life a few years down the road, I didn't see you there. The person I was striving to be, was no longer compatible with the person you were stuck as.
As I was working towards who I wanted to be, spending time with you had me reverting to the person who I no longer wanted to be and it was not good for me. I was losing the person I was, the person that I was working so hard to be. So I walked away.
I walked away because of myself. It was what was best for me. There is nothing that you could have said or anything that you could have done that would have made me stay. Yes, there are days where I miss you and the times we spent together, but I think it is more, I miss the memories. I'll hold on to those forever.
Like Taylor Swift said, "God forbid fate should step in, and force us into a goodbye, if you have children someday, when they point to the pictures, please tell them my name. Tell them how the crowds went wild. Tell them how I hope they shine." I hope you find all the happiness in the world, and I wish you thought the same for me, but if you're not, that's okay because I still wish you the best.
Love,
An old friend
