He’s changed, hasn’t he. His smile is no longer as bright as it once was. His eyes, which you could see through to the very core of his soul, were suddenly so dull and empty. You don’t know who’s standing in front of you anymore.
It sucks. It really sucks to sit there and see the shell of somebody you once knew but everything about them is just completely different. The way that they drink their water. The way that they hold their fork. They’re so alert to everything around them, yet so disconnected.
You miss the person who you fell so in love with, and knowing you’re never getting him back is the worst part of it all.
They still live their life, but their charisma you once saw in every step that they took; the laughs you had when the popcorn would fly out of the popcorn maker and overflow in the bowl. It’s gone. The light from the fridge would illuminate their face and just ever so slightly you’d see their eyelashes so delicate and beautiful blink as they look into your eyes and lean in to kiss you. It’s all simply vanished, and maybe that's because it's what was supposed to be.
I hope you wear your baseball hat and smile, he loved how you looked in them. And even though you've moved on, you still respect that. It's something you'll hold onto forever. I hope that when you go to the beach you remember how cold the water was, but he still told you to swim with him because the one thing he’s always loved about you is your crazy love for adventure. He's right, I'm so glad he's found it; it's brilliant, and I hope you never lose it.
I hope you find him again someday, and I hope that you two can be in one another's lives again. I hope he finds him again someday. I hope he sees the beauty in the silence that will surround him sometimes. I hope he sees that he’s still OK being alone. I hope that the person you opened your heart to comes back someday, and I hope you get to see the real him again. But I hope you're strong enough to know that his chapter in your life has closed.
Maybe you’ve made mistakes, too. Maybe you’ve done things you’re not proud of while he changed, too. But I hope those mistakes you’ll forgive yourself for someday. I hope that you both look beyond everything that happened and respect the new people you both are. I hope that someday both of you find your forever with someone.
To the person who you shared your once in a lifetime with, the person who you know is out there somewhere, I hope someday that he comes back so someone else can love him like you know he deserves to be loved. That person was so beautiful. That person’s future wife is someone I know you envy. She got the forever that you had wished for, but you knew deep down could never be yours because it was simply not meant to be.
To the person who you once loved, I hope they find their way back. And when then do, I hope so deeply that they never leave again.
