Welcome to the club sister! Let me guess; you've been told that you're clingy, that you require too much time and attention, and that your emotions are too much to deal with. Well, let me tell you personally, you're absolutely not too much to deal with, and you're absolutely not the only girl out there who feels this way.
As a girl who has come to the conclusion that her emotions either tip the scale or aren't even on the spectrum, I understand how difficult it is to feel everything so heavily. Love, hate, confusion, sadness; these feelings engulf you and bury you under their overbearing weight. You've been told that you're too soft for this world, but that's not true; you just have unrealistic expectations of what the world truly is. You're loyal, which is one of your best qualities, but it's also the characteristic that destroys you. You expect other people to do for you what you would do for them, and you are irreversibly damaged when you discover their intentions are not as pure as yours.
I might be going out on a limb here, but I'm going to assume that you overthink everything. You care so deeply about the people around you that you can read them like the back of your hand. You know their body language, their facial expressions, their tone of voice, and essentially everything that makes them the person they are. You feel weird when they notice it, but you really can't help it, you just care. You notice when people are acting differently around you, and you tend to blame yourself, seeing past people's imperfections and only focusing on the fact that once again, you care about someone more than they care about you.
If I had to guess, I would say that you are relentlessly trying to make the people around you happy. You are thankful for each and every person who makes an effort to hang out with you, who truly listens to what you have to say and genuinely cares about your well-being. You often tell the people in your life how much they mean to you, because you don't know what you would do without them. Until you have to learn how to do things without them, because they leave. Which makes you unbearably disappointed, and the cycle continues.
You care too much about animals, characters in books, world issues that you desperately want to change but don't have the power to, people you've never met, people you have met, sunsets, words that you try to find an excuse to use in a real sentence, the stars in the sky, and the list goes on. You vow to try and change the way you feel so that things don't hurt you as easily and so that you don't care about everything so much, but I'm begging you not to.
You love so hard because that's how you've always been. No holding back, no restraints. You love so hard because you're fearless, you're a warrior, because you were made to change the world with your beautiful soul. You are pure, you are uncanny, you can rebuild the broken with the gentle touch that you were made to have. The people who come into your life and choose to stay are there because you have an effect on them that they can't find anywhere else. Pity the people who choose to walk away from you, because they are missing out on someone who will care for them unconditionally. Do not let the world make you hard. Keep faith that there is still a beautiful world underneath the damaged exterior.
Don't be scared because your heart's too big for the world. Create the world that can handle your brilliant glow.
