Dear friend from the past,
How have you been? How has life been treating you? I hope you finally got what you were looking for, since nothing I ever did for you was good enough. I cared about you too much and put your needs before my own, and you took advantage of that. You realized that I would do anything for you, I would literally stop everything I was doing to help you when you needed me, but you gave me nothing in return. Maybe I was too nice of a friend, maybe I cared about you too much, but that's just how I am. I continuously look for the best in people, and give them more chances than they deserve. All I ever wanted to do was help you through life. I wanted to help you succeed and achieve all of your goals, but all you ever wanted to do was put me down and put me last. You never appreciated anything that I did for you. You would ask for my advice and then do the complete opposite, taking five steps away from your goals in the process.
All I ever wanted was for you to be truly and infinitely happy, to help you get to where you wanted in life, but now looking back I understand. You needed time without me to reflect and to miss me. To finally see and realize everything that I did for you. You chose friends who would give you immediate satisfaction, rather than someone who would push you to try harder. Maybe it was too much for you at the time, maybe you weren't ready to push yourself yet. Or maybe you weren't ready to put in the work required to achieve your goals, and expected them to be handed to you, just like almost everything you have done thus far. You also never realized how privileged you were, and how easy you had things, Yes I realize that no one's life is perfect, but you refused to see things from other perspectives and didn't want to burst the bubble that you lived in.
I hope life is going well for you now, and that you learned lessons from our friendship, just like I did. Although you made me miserable and frustrated far more times than you made me happy, I am still grateful that you were in my life for the time you were. I learned more about myself, friendships, and life in general. Our so called friendship was a stepping stone in my life that taught me unforgettable lessons, as I hope it did for you too.
Even though at one point in my life I thought that we would be friends forever, that you would be standing by my side on my wedding day, I'm not sad. I realized that some people aren't meant to be in your life forever, that people will come and go and just be a chapter in your own story book called life, and that is okay, you were meant to teach me a lesson about myself. I learned that it is okay to care about others, but that in the end, I needed to put myself first. Every time you took my actions for granted, you were teaching me how to live without you.
Old friend, I hope you are doing good. I also hope that you are truly happy, and if not, that you are working on getting to that point. I hope you are working towards your goals and dreams. I hope you find friends who push you to succeed and truly wish to see you be the best version of yourself. I know this new chapter of life is hard, but I hope that you have adjusted well.
Well wishes,
An old friend.
