You may not realize it, but you’re a huge reason I am who I am today. I’m strong and independent; but I’m also guarded. But I’m not bitter about it. You’ve made me realize my self-worth. I’ll be honest, I’ve struggled with my self-image and confidence in who I am for a while.
To me, being called beautiful means that a person is seeing you for who you are. They’re complimenting your personality and quirks and flaws and the way you laugh. Being called hot means that a person is seeing you for what’s on the outside. They’re complimenting your slim waistline and full face of makeup and tight-fitting jeans.
You made me doubt myself. I’ll admit there were times that I thought there was something wrong with me and sometimes I still get those waves of insecurity. Sometimes I hate when a guy compliments me on how I look, even if it’s just to be polite, because I think of all the times you would do that.
I’m not a piece of meat. I’m not someone you can lead on and on and act like you care about just to get some. I’m better than that. I’m smarter than that. But I don’t have anything against you.
All of the times you acted like you liked me when you really just liked my body, have built me into a woman who won’t settle. And I don’t mean settling for a guy. I won’t settle for picking myself apart. I won’t settle for trying to be someone I’m not. I won’t settle for picking away at my every flaw in order to look the part because I feel like looks are all that anyone wants from me.
I’m not going to stop working out, putting on makeup, or wearing crop tops, because I’m going to feel good about myself for me. I’m not going to cringe if someone says I’m attractive and I’m not going to try to make my personality fit into any kind of stereotype. I finally realize that you can’t rely on a guy or anyone to make you feel beautiful, because if you rely on someone to do that, you’ll only feel beautiful on the outside.
But I couldn’t have grown into the girl I am now if it wasn’t for you. I wouldn’t love myself, my personality included, and I wouldn’t be writing this right now. So, thank you.
Yours,
More than just a pretty face
