I am not sure where to begin, I have known you my whole life and you have impacted it in ways you will never understand. You are my older sister and I am so lucky to have you. Some of my favorite childhood memories are with you, like the times mom would take us to the park, running through the sprinklers in the backyard, when dad would take us for car rides and many more. I worry about you though, especially what your future will be like. For so long I was mad. Why did this happen to you, why aren’t you like everyone else? It made me so sad that you were never going to have the same opportunities that I and so many other people have. It just did not seem fair at all.
I also would sometimes be mad at myself because I am able to do so much that you are not. I experienced a first date, going out with friends, my first job, the excitement of getting accepted into college, prom, going away to college and even so many other things that haven’t even happened to me yet that I know you can not have. I can have my dream career and a family one day and I would always wish that you could too. After thinking about that for awhile, I was suddenly not mad at myself anymore. I realized something; just because you are not able to do those things does not mean that you are unhappy. You probably do not even care about those things in the same way that I do. I know you are not really able to talk or express what you are exactly feeling but I can see that you are happy in ways that I am not. We do not have to be able to do the same things and experience similar things to be happy.
What makes you so happy though? The first thing I think of are mom and dad. They make you incredibly happy and I can see why. They are very amazing people. Everything they say and do is filled with love and I see it everyday. I really look up to them for everything they do for you and the love that they have for you. That is one of the bigger things that make you happy but I see some of the smaller things do too. Breakfast in the morning brings a smile to your face, car rides, sitting outside on a nice day, music, coloring, a dog, and the list can go on and on. You appreciate the things that I easily take for granted. You helped me realize that I need to stop focusing on the larger things in life and love all the little things. You have helped me appreciate simplicity.
Things do not just make you happy, but you make people happy. The way you interact with others and how others interact with you is so touching. I am forever grateful for the people that take the time out of their day to talk to you and appreciate you. You are so special and beautiful and I have learned to stop being so angry at the world for not making you like everyone else, but to be grateful. I am to thankful for who you are and that God made you this way. Everything about you is perfect and nothing less. It is time for me to stop worrying so much and start being more grateful and happy for who you are. Thank you for being my big sister, I would not want you any other way and I love you more than you will ever know.
Love,
Your little sister
