To my long distance boyfriend,

I miss you. I know I've texted you this 100+ times (although that's not as much as the amount you text me), but let me reiterate: I miss you.

We first met in class. We had class every day together, but the first day we met was in the woods. I went on and on about my goat, and while you claim I was going on about therapy goats, I'm pretty sure it was just my goat. But, I was wild, loud and giggly. I made two great friends that day, you and the girl whose mascara I fixed. You eventually became friends with her, and now we have weekly 'girls night' all together. And, you, you were this big lumberjack looking man. You wore plaid, and being a Vermont girl, I love plaid.

From that day on, we talked. In class, then through Facebook. You ragged on me day in and day out, driving me insane, and yet I still had the biggest crush on you. Was it obvious? Probably too obvious. I've never been subtle. Now, here we are, in a committed relationship to one another, something I thought would never happen. I'm so glad that it did, there isn't a day that goes by that I regret being in this relationship.

But, now I'm gone. I no longer see you ever day. There's almost 200 miles between us, and while in retrospect that might not be as far as some, those 200 miles are slowly killing me. I know I left when I finished my freshman year, and you were there to help me pack my car and kiss me goodbye in the elevator. And the room. And outside the room. There was a lot of kissing goodbye. I told you no crying and you told me the same, but I definitely cried a bit in the car.

Almost 12 weeks till I get to come home because you are my home. This lonely, cow-filled state called Vermont is no longer home for me. The house I grew up, the room I have been in for almost 19 years, is no longer home for me. Home has now become a person with full sleeve tattoos and a lumberjack beard. Home has become a person who looks like he could murder you with just one look, but on the inside is the biggest teddy bear I've ever met. You, my greatest love, are home. And, I will finally return to you in 12 weeks, however agonizingly slow that is, I will return.

I miss you. There I go again, the second time, during this article. I miss you, and I miss the cats. We adopted two cats, and I miss them to death. I miss how our fat little one pukes around the apartment, then comes to you meowing to let you know. We still let him in the bed to sleep with us, anyway. I like to think he knows never to puke in the bed because our heads are usually his pillows, and wow would that be a nice 3 a.m surprise! I miss the fat one, and I miss the other semi fat one. The fat one is my favorite, we all know that. But, you're number one before them.

There's a lot of things that run through my head sometimes, things about our relationship. Sometimes it's hard, and even in the darkest times, you're there. You're there to help me stand, there for me to lean on. You're my biggest support team, my personal cheerleader. There's so much I want to do, and you support me in it all. Thank you for that.

I've never been good at relationships. I've dated the jerks, you dated the crazies, but I've always been unlucky in love, dating people who broke me and brought me down. So, I've never really quite cared about break-ups, I've always left before I got too attached in some cases. But, it's been two months, and while that seems so short, I'm all in. I'm fully invested in this relationship, and I don't think I've ever cared more about making this relationship last, working to make it stronger than it was the day before. I've never cared more about another person in my whole life.

Before I say my goodbyes once again, I've got a list of things I promised to myself that I made in regards to our relationship to keep away the summer blues.

1. Always send or tag you in memes, because memes is where the heart lies

2. I'll never purposefully ignore your texts because communication is key to our relationship right now. More so than it was in person, where we could read each others' body language or listen to the tone of our voices. I'm sorry my sarcasm makes me come off like an asshole in texts. It's not me, it's the phone, I swear!

3. Send you cute little things that I've collected over the weeks. You may not get the package yet, because I'm broke (thanks for the gas money babe), but you'll get it one day. Hint: there may be a pine cone in it

4. I promise to bombard you with cute text messages, or as cute as I can be. You know I'm not good at being sappy, you have that department covered. But, I try as hard as I can. Sometimes the words can never form in my head, but you always seem to be thinking the same thing.

5. I promise to support you in all your endeavors, but just know I'll still tell you to "tell [insert name] that your girlfriend said no", even if I say yes.

6. I promise to keep the inside jokes alive, like promise number 5

7. I promise not to give up on us, even when things are tough.

Thank you for all you've done for me. Thank you for always being there for me. See you in 12 weeks!

Love,

The cute brunette that eats all the food in your fridge

p.s I love this low-quality photo of us because I'm actually wearing makeup and we aren't making dumb faces as per usual