Before I apologize, I’d like to thank you. Thank you for putting up with me and the craziness that comes as a package deal. I know we haven’t been together long but I have a great deal of appreciation towards you for everything you do for me.
After saying that, I’d like to apologize for a few things I may or may not have apologized for before.
I'm sorry for being so needy
I am a girl which means I’m needy sometimes, but I’m extra needy most of the time. I know there are times you need space but I still like to know you’re there.
I was left so broken
Unfortunately I was broken when you found me, but thank you for all the support and encouragement you give me. I’m sorry you have to see me in this state, but you’re my rock and motivation to cope with my PTSD.
I’m jealous
You’ve probably noticed at times that I get jealous when you’re with other girls. My jealousy comes from my insecurities. I’m terrified you’re going to realize another girl who is smarter, prettier and better than me. That terrifies me so much.
You don’t completely understand my anxiety
I know anxiety is a foreign mental illness to you because I’m the only person close to you that has it. I appreciate you researching anxiety, its triggers and what attacks can look like. Anxiety is different for everyone and we are learning, together, what mine is like.
There are times of doubt
With my anxiety comes times I doubt I’ll improve and get better, but then there you are to catch me. You know I’ve had my doubts with us because of our pasts, but there you are yet again to assure me that we can handle everything.
Netflix binges
This one is partially your fault. You chose to watch Parks and Recreation, which was a fantastic series. Then there is One Tree Hill, it took me a month to get you to watch it with me and then you never wanted to turn it off. Then there are the times I begged you to skip track to watch movies with me – sorry not sorry.
With that being said, I’m sorry but thank you. I appreciate you more than you will ever know. Thank you for always catching me when I fall and assuring me I’ll improve even though I have my doubts. Just keep in mind, you’re the one that chose my craziness and my baggage, but I love you.
Always,
Your Girlfriend
