It has been official Summer for a little over a week now, and the thought of school still lingers in my mind.
It is not even the good parts of school that linger either, but instead the bad. I was scrolling through Twitter the other day and saw a tweet talking about college PTSD and I found it sorta relatable. I have noticed over the last week while being home I find myself often times stressing because I feel like there is something school related I should be doing. I feel like there are assignments that need to be done, papers to write and exams to study for.
The feeling follows me.
The day I moved home from school I wanted to do nothing else besides go out on the lake. This is my happy place and I figured the lake water would wash away all my remaining stress and worries just like it had always done for me in the past. But instead I found myself checking Athena and eLc wondering when grades would be put in and why it was taking so long. I went to dinner with some friends and 15 minutes into dinner I noticed the only topic of conversation had been about school and grades. This to me is mind blowing. People I have not seen in months and the first thing we think to talk about is school and grades.
I went into Summer looking forward to a mental break.
This is something I continued to tell myself throughout finals week. It served as motivation to stay up those last couple of nights to confirm what I had worked so hard for all semester. Walking out of my last final I felt on top of the world. Nothing could kill my mood because I was done, but I was wrong. The week between finals being over and grades being posted might be worse than finals week itself. Now that grades are in and the year is official over I am hoping school thoughts will quickly fade away.
