Coming to college was definitely a challenge I was not ready for. They try to make you feel better by telling you that everyone is going through the same thing and when you become more involved, it will get better. These things are very true, the only problem is that it became very clear that the challenging part would last a little longer for me than usual.
It seemed that my first semester of college was a pretty low point for me. At first, it didn't seem real because the first month of school was so fun. I had such a great group of friends and it all seemed to be rainbows and butterflies. But it turns out that college really isn't the best if you're trying to make friends and you don't enjoy going out and really you're not apart of any clubs yet.
There seemed to be more times I would text my friends from home or call my parents telling them how much I missed them rather than going out or having fun. The classes I took were not the greatest and stress headaches really put a damper on your day when you're too dizzy to move.
But enough about the bad stuff.
Yes, I understand my first semester of college wasn't the greatest, but who really has an amazing first semester? No one I know has gone back and said "WOW! My first semester of college really takes the cake as the best time I had those entire four years!" It just sounds insane.
After a lot of thinking and reconsidering, I decided to not lose all hope in my dream school. I chose to come back and accept that first semester really sucked, but now it is over and done with. It is all just in the past now and there is an open door leading to winter term and spring semester.
I came back to school and it really seems to be getting better (thankfully!) and I believe it is all because I came back motivated to make a change. I knew that if I dwelled on what happened last semester, nothing would get better and I would not be as happy as I am today. Because I changed my motive, I now have so many new friends and memories that I get to cherish forever.
There are some points in your life that you just need to accept that this may be a sh*t time in your life, but its because something new and exciting is just around the corner waiting for you. The only advice I can give is to not give up during the low point. You need to dust yourself off, get back in it, and try again. If life was just full of high points, how could we cherish them? We need the low points because they make us into better humans.
That is why I can now say I am grateful for my really crappy first semester of college. It taught me more about myself than I ever knew and it makes spring semester that much more exciting for me.
