It seemed like a love story you see in the movies. He made you feel important, cared for, and worthy. He looked at you like you were the most beautiful thing he's ever seen. And you looked back at him with hopeful eyes that this was real. That this would last.
Things started to change. He became distant. The calls and texts were fewer and farther in between. You knew him. You knew the depths of his heart and you knew something wasn't right. But he said he loved you, so he must mean it right?
Sometimes we hold on to the idea of something. And that results in us holding onto someone that maybe we shouldn't. He lied, but it was just once. He was with another girl, but it was just once. You make all these excuses for a man who doesn't deserve it. You try to minimize his behavior.
Other people don't get why you're holding onto someone who hurt you, but they don't know him like you do. They weren't there for the good times. The times he made you laugh so hard you cried, the time he threw you over his shoulder and drowned you in kisses just to end the fight, and every time he said those three words. I love you. But did he?!
Love isn't when someone loves you then leaves so quickly. Love isn't when he puts you through a rollercoaster of emotions every week. You shouldn't have to wonder about the next time he will leave. You shouldn't have to wonder if you're enough.
You start to hold onto this rollercoaster of emotions because at least you're feeling something. Even if you feel unwanted and unappreciated, you want to feel something. In your mind, if he was talking to you, whether good or bad, you held on tighter. He gives you a piece of him and you run with it. He gives you false hope and you take it.
His absence and lack of effort makes you wonder if you ever meant anything to him. You wonder if all those long texts and late night phone calls were an act. Was he just with me because he was lonely? Or was I just a trophy girl for him when he wanted one?
The broken promises are the worst. There's a list of promises he made and a future you two had planned. All of those wonderful things are gone when he walks out the door.
You're better off without him, when you spend more time crying over him than smiling with him.
You're better off without him, when you are scared to open his snapchats because it's one girl after another.
You're better off without him, when you start to question your worth and existence.
You're better off without him, the minute he makes you feel like you weren't enough.
You will meet someone someday who will show you all the amazing reasons why you should be treated like a princess. And most importantly, all the reasons why it didn't work out with anyone else.
