Time has passed since the last time I have seen you. We have been separated by thousands of miles, but I still think of you often. Very often, actually. We have talked occasionally, here and there, all to catch up with each other lives. We are both jet setting off around the world, learning new cultures and languages, visiting beautiful places and meeting amazing, unforgettable people.
Being a poor college student as it is, it’s quite difficult budgeting your money when all you want to do is travel to every country. That being said, we were unable to see each other during this semester apart. I know we have cherished the time we had together, but I think being unable to see each other is still a good thing. Like I have said before, I need time for myself apart from school-related things and certain people. I need the time I have abroad to find myself and learn many things about myself that I have overlooked for 21 years. Seeing you would make the memories flood back through my mind. Of course I wouldn’t mind them, but they would surely be distracting. I can’t help but play scenarios in my head about us and what could have been.
Our last conversation still resonates with me. You had forgiven me. And maybe you had forgiven me a long time ago, but this time felt different. I knew for sure your words were the truth and the past didn’t matter anymore. My disregards to your emotions have been put behind both of us and you are searching for something new from me. I am still quite surprised; shocked really. I thought my mistakes ruined everything and was a very big deal for me. The incident was the complete opposite for you. I think this is telling me something about your character. You have an enormous heart that just wants to care for something important. You are mature and grown for forgiving so quickly and looking surpass something most people could not. Your outer edge is rough, but the inside is tender with a boy full of emotions and love.
Ah, the mushy stuff, I know. I’m sure you’ll hate me more that, but it is all true.
Our time apart seems to be difficult for us as I realize how much of an impact I made on you. Not to mention the adding guilt I felt after you told me this. You have a special place in my heart and I hope we can talk about us more often and begin where we left off.
Those are my wishes. What're yours?
