Sometimes you put yourself out there
But where is 'there'?
It always seems to be this mystical place
A place where people decide to try again
And when they try they magically find...
Someone who makes them feel alive again
But what if I get out there
And what if I don't find that person
That person who brings me to life
What if I just wander
And what if the person that left me behind
Or the person I left behind
Was the only one
The only one who in this moment
Could make me feel alive again
Could take me from this deserted abyss
And the feeling of a bomb
A bomb that seems to work in reverse
And sucks the life out of me.
Like the way gas sucks the air out of the room
You suck the air from my lungs
And with every bated breath
I check my phone screen
And stare at a blank wallpaper
Missing the sense of you
And maybe one day I'll breathe again
And maybe one day you'll text back
"Read 3:59 a.m."