I'm NOT sorry that our friendship has come to end. I'm not sorry that we no longer talk or that I no longer see your posts on Facebook. I am actually very happy that I don't. You were always a very toxic person to me. You would always lie and say one thing and then go and tell others another thing. You made up fake stories just to impress people. But we all knew that they were just made up. That they were your way of trying to fit in with everyone and not feel so left out. I'm sorry that you felt that you had to lie and make up stories for us. We never wanted that.
We would always try and include you in our lives. From Christmas, to birthdays to Easter and more. You were always welcome at our house when ever your family failed to be what they were supposed to be; your family. We were another home to you. We were a place that you could call home and that you could feel like you were without judgment. We loved you unconditionally. Until you lied one to many times.
It is not often I'm home so when I do come home I try and spend it with those that I love. You were one of those people. Sure we may not have been blood but I considered you family. You've been apart of my life for so long that I forgot what it was like to not have you in it. And honestly, it feels great. You were always such a toxic person. You would always choose those who would treat you like you did not matter over those who would do anything to make sure you were okay. You always let people walk all over you but you never appreciated what we gave you. You walked all over us and for a time we let you. That is until you lied one to many times. At first I used to blame myself. Saying that next time it would be different. That you wouldn't choose someone who would always take advantage of you. But time and time again that is who you would choose. So finally I had enough.
It has taken me years to get to this place of acceptance. It has taken me a long time to realize that I don't deserve to be lied to all the time. I'm not saying all of our friendship was bad. We've had good times. But the bad unfortunately outweighs the good. There is only so much lying and deceiving a person can take during their life. And I was sick of being lied to by someone I considered family. Someone I would choose time and time again. So I'm not sorry. You were the one who lied. Not just to me or my mom, but to our friends. You were the one who made the decision to lie. You were the one who made all of the choices that led up to us not being friends. So while you realize how much my family did for you and how much you've lost, maybe next time you will think twice about who you lie to. I'm not sorry that our friendship has ended and I will not forgive you. And for that, I'm better off.
