I have had a hard time trusting people my entire life. My mother was in and out of my life frequently, and she has lied to me and my siblings our entire lives. So when I became older I never knew who I could and couldn't trust. I didn't ever have a lot of friends, but when I did I would lose them because I could never trust them so I couldn't be close to them. I would tell everybody everything about myself so that people had nothing to expose me for.
When I started dating I would always break up with the guy in fear of being abandoned, like my mother had abandoned me. I would always accuse them of cheating, lying, or whatever else I could come up with. I was petrified of being hurt, and I guess that I still am. But tell me, who isn't.
The worst feeling in the world is being scorned by someone who is supposed to love you. And as I grew up I realized that there are a lot of us who have been. Getting hurt is just part of life and we all go through that hurt and empty feeling at least once or twice in our lives.
But we shouldn't let that ruin our chances of having other great people come into our lives. If I kept pushing people away for fear of being hurt again, there are so many amazing people that I wouldn't have in my life today.
My two best friends and their families have been so amazing to me. When I went into high school I had no friends. It was a regional high school, and I went in asssuming I was going to continue to have no friends, but to my suprise I met the three amazing people, and I don't know where I would be without them.
Ally, you taught me how to bond with and trust in people. Your family is literally a second family to me, you've always been there for me. Always trusted me and we know we can count on eachother for anything and everything. You let me into your life with ease and I am so grateful to be apart of it. I've always known that I can trust you know matter what's going on and I am so appreciative. We've been friends for almost 5 years now, and I know we'll be friends the rest of our lives. Even though our lives are getting busy and hectic, I know next time I see you, we're picking up where we left off.
Julia, you taught me to have fun. Before I met you I would stay at home and watch tv all day. But after I met you we went on so many exciting adventures. From mall trips to NASCAR we have had so many times where we've been out of breath from laughing. I can always count on you for a good time, and when we're together I know that all of my problems will feel like they've faded away. We've spent so many birthdays living it up together, almost 5 now. And I am so grateful I know that we get to spend so many more together. Thank you so much for showing me I can be happy and have fun without worrying about judgement.
David, you taught me love. I have loved you as a friend for years, and now I get to love you as a husband and a father to our child. You have been making me happy and melting my heart since the day I met you. The feeling in my heart when I'm with you is uncomparable with anything that I have ever felt. Just the sight of you has me smiling from ear to ear. You showed me that no matter what is happening in my life I have someone who loves me. Your whole family has welcomed me in with open arms and it makes me so happy, I love you all so much. I will alwyas treat you like a king, because you always treat me like a queen. Thank you for loving me.
In my opinion the most important people you will ever meet in your life are the ones that teach you lessons like these. The ones who will have your back through thick and thin and will never let you down. And if you don't have these people, don't be upset, because they're out there. As long as you give people the chance to love you, let them. Don't scorn people or drive them away, because not everybody you meet is doomed to hurt you. Let in your friends and family and don't let bad people or broken relationships get in the way of you being happy.
