I am a college student. As grateful as I am to be allowed to go to a university, I cannot consider anything a place I am actually calm and relaxed. Being a resident student at a university does have its perks. The instant social life, the closeness to campus, reality of freedom. What happens when that gets old? Do you curl up in the feeble position and just rollover? No, you go to the one place you can truly sleep in peace without anxiety. Home.
If my mom mentioned "coffee in the morning?" my world instantly became full of positivity. I am addicted to coffee but the one thing I can tell you is more lovely than coffee in the morning is waking up safe and secure in the comfort of your own home. Ask any college dorm resident; the beds are about as useful as laying a comforter on the ground and sleeping on that. These thoughts and ideas flourish when the weekend comes and you decide not to go home. A conscience decision to go another week without the people who love you the most.
Going home to me was never about asking my parents for supplies or books. I missed them, a lot. Although they would beg and ultimately just buy food and necessities, it was not my first intention. I truthfully wanted to be home around them in the atmosphere that everything is peaceful. No classes, no parties, no homework, no students, no chaotic environment.
It is easy to forget how great home really is when you neglect going back every once and awhile. College is supposed to be about the experience and you 'hopefully' only endure four years of it. The problem is that breaks cannot be taken in the comfort of your dorm room or down the street in a coffee shop. A true break from everything is drinking that morning coffee with your mom/dad/sister/brother/uncle/grandmother/grandfather and watching cartoons at nine in the morning.
Three years down and I still cannot find a home. I have been searching for 36 months and still have no place I can truly call home, never mind a house. The fact of life is that the people who raised you are not going to be around forever as tough as that is to stomach. Go home every once in a while and enjoy their presence. A sigh of relief will wash over you unlike anything else.
