I have never been good at letting go, especially when it comes to people.

It is even harder for me to let go when it comes to you.

I would wake up every morning and hold on to those tiny fragments of hope. I realized that those tiny fragments of hope are the reasons why I am suffering.

So today, I let you go.

I want to be able to fully love myself before anyone else can. I need to think about myself before I think about you. I cannot love myself if I make you my priority while I am just your option. The way I love myself is the way others will love me.

You make me feel like I am hard to love, and I want to stay away from that toxicity. I show you the best version of myself, but somehow I still do not feel good enough. I am always afraid that you will find someone better.

We both want to different things. You are always roaming freely, and I am just here waiting for you. I want you to find what and who you want to find. There is no point in me waiting and questioning what we are.

You are always so indecisive. You do not know what you want. I deserve to receive an answer. I deserve to have someone who knows that they want me indefinitely.

If I keep holding on to the thought of us being something, then I am just holding on to my own suffering. I have so much in me to only be half loved. Life is too precious for me to be waiting around for something that will not happen. I cannot go around carrying the burden of your uncertainty. The more I fight for what we are not, the more I will be fought back. I have to respect myself enough to let go of something that is not worth holding onto.

We were just an almost. We almost made it. We can just take this as a lesson learned in life.

As long as you are happy and I am happy, then there is nothing to worry about.

Maybe this is not an ending to something in my life, but just the start of something more magical.