Dating is a crazy thing these days. Sometimes you get lucky and sometimes not so much.
I never dated in high school and I started dating when I got to college. I had dates here and there and then my fourth year of college, I got my first boyfriend. I was infatuated with him. We were together for three months and I thought I loved him. I thought we had the perfect relationship, then the fighting happened.
It was constant and it wrecked me every time it happened. I finally called it off and it wasn't until I broke it off that I realized how toxic the relationship was. I was glad I got myself out of it before it got too out of hand. I decided to focus on myself and figure out what I wanted in a relationship and what I wanted in life. I didn't date for a good eight and a half months and then I decided to give dating another shot. Of course, I always got the guys who just wanted to hook up or would text me at two in the morning asking me to come over or make it seem as though they were interested until they stopped talking to me and blocked me on everything.
Then I met a different guy. He seemed like a good man and he was really cute.
We set up a date and let me tell you... I was so nervous. I hadn't been on a date since my ex and I was so nervous. I didn't know how the date would go or if it would be awkward, but I sucked it up, took a deep breath, and went on the date. We went to the orchestra concert on campus and since I live right next to the auditorium, I was early.
My hands were sweaty and I was getting anxious every second that went by waiting for him. Then he walked through the door and when I laid eyes on him, my heart fluttered. I had butterflies and I was hardcore blushing. I could not stop blushing and the more I thought about my blushing the longer it stayed. I blushed for a good 30 minutes before I calmed down. After the concert, we went to lunch and then he took me home. After the date, I could not stop thinking about this man.
This guy did something to me and I was crazy about him, but my fear was he did not feel the same way.
Then he asked me on a second date and I knew it was a sign he liked me enough to go on a second date. We went to a movie, walked around campus, and I introduced him to Potter's House. The whole time we were on this date I was wondering if he was going to make a move, whether that be just to hug me or to grab my hand. Then he took me home and he kissed me! After that, I knew I was in trouble. He asked me on a third date and after that a fourth and now we are a couple.
He treats me with so much love and respect.
There are times when I look at him and wonder, "How did I get so lucky?" He is different from the other guys I had dated. He never asks for anything. He is kind and loving, and he trusted me to meet his family and his dog. He supports and respects me in my decisions and supports me with school 100 percent. He does things for me not because he has to, but because he wants to.
We spend a lot of time together, seeing each other every other day and the weekends. Though we have been together for just three months, I feel we have known each other for a lot longer. He has shown me I don't have to pretend to be someone I am not and I can be myself. He loves for who I am and he sees me for me. He also buys me flowers and I have never been given flowers. I have never asked for them, but he gets them for me anyway. It always makes me smile every time he does.
He has made me realize not all men are dogs and not all men want one thing.
He has shown me it is OK to love and give someone your heart. He makes me feel beautiful and makes me want to become a better person. He makes me giddy and nervous every time I see him. I love the dates we go on. I know I am always smiling and laughing when I am with him. He has shown me how a man is supposed to treat a woman. I never thought I would find someone like him and I know God brought us together for a reason.
I am so grateful I had the chance to meet him and be his girlfriend. He truly is an amazing man and I don't deserve a man like him, but I am grateful he is mine.
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