"I don't wanna think, I may never understand, how my broken heart is apart of your plan... It's hard to count it all joy, distracted by the noise. Just trying to make since of all your promises." ~Hillary Scott 'Thy Will'
I've been thinking a lot lately. In the words of Hillary Scott, I guess I've been trying to make since of God's promises. Somethings are hard to reconcile. Sometimes, the noise is just so loud. It becomes difficult to grasp God's promises, to see God's promises, when you are daily being bombarded with news of sickness, abandonment, heartbreak, disaster... Some strike close to home, and some strike home. It's like praying earnestly for healing only to grow more ill. Where is the cohesiveness in this? How do we see God when we're living in the very things that go against the nature of God as we understand it here on Earth?
And I know. We all know. God is good. He has a plan. Pain is unavoidable in a world of sin. This is true, but doesn't it almost seem cliche? Like this isn't the answer. It can't be can it? It's like giving someone a sugar pill just so they stop complaining, when in reality, I think more times than not, there is no answer. At least not this side of Heaven.
But somehow, even in the questions, there must be a way to find reconciliation in the doubt, in the unanswered questions. I think, for me anyway, the only way to find this reconciliation is in a faith that transcends the unanswered questions. We must find faith that stands amidst the sickness, the loss, the unanswered prayers, the pain, the devastation, and remains confident in a God who says He is good, even when he doesn't provide the reason, the explanation, or the solution.
Because despite God's overwhelming goodness. Sometimes life makes no since. Sometimes, the unanswered questions rage like nothing else. Sometimes, the fear is crippling. Sometimes, the loneliness seems to last forever. Sometimes, the hurt doesn't heal. And when we are faced with these times, our faith must be strong enough to handle the chaos.