Over this past winter break, I had the amazing opportunity to go to a huge conference in San Antonio, Texas. Texas was full of mercy the week of January 3-7. Every other year, the Fellowship Of Catholic University Students hosts a conference for Catholic college students to come together and dive deeper into their faith. It brings together agnostics and Christians alike and every person in attendance will surely walk away with a renewed outlook on Jesus Christ. It was so refreshing to see 13,000 students from across the world come together and love Jesus! I have never been in such a large crowd of such like-minded individuals.The speakers they had were phenomenal, adoration was absolutely beautiful, and seeing the amount of mercy pour out through San Antonio as 13,000 people had their confessions heard was a sight like no other (although the line for confession was surely a force to be reckoned with).

For me, SEEK could not have come at a more perfect time. I didn't realize how far I had strayed and how much I needed to come back to Jesus. This break, I was faced with some trials I never would have imagined I would be faced with, and at times I feel like I lost part of myself. SEEK found it for me. While at the conference, I was able to confide in several of my friends who are missionaries about my personal struggle over the break. The reason I desired to tell them so badly is because I know that they each know how to love so well, and I needed to be loved through this. It wasn't until one of them prayed over me that I realized, I haven't even brought this to Jesus yet. I then went to confession and adoration and let our Lord pour His love out onto me. No one can love like Jesus does, and that is just what I was seeking. I didn't just tell one missionary friend my dilemma. As each one showed me love and mercy, I began searching for the next one to tell, so that they too can love me. When I finally let Jesus love me through my faults, my heart was satisfied. His love gives like no other can.

Often times I think we are hesitant to tell Jesus our struggles. We justify it by saying that He is an all-knowing God, who already knows everything we will face in life before we face it. While this may be true, there is just so much power in vocalizing your issues; in owning your faults. Also, Jesus is a gentleman and He is not going to work in our lives until we ask Him to. Let us continually invite Jesus into our lives. He desires that so much for each of us. He is sitting there, waiting for us to come to Him so that He may pour out His mercy and love on us.