I like to think that I'm a very put together person, who always has their life somewhat in control. I know that I am also a happy person, I try not to let things get to me all that much because life isn't worth being angry or sad all the time. I am however, an emotional person. I always have been. One of my earliest memories is coming home from seeing "Monsters Inc." in the movie theaters and crying myself to sleep because of how cute but sad the ending was. Flash forward 15 years later and I am still crying leaving the movie theatre after seeing almost every type of movie.
My emotions go far beyond the theatre, though. This week I've caught myself crying alone in my dorm room multiple times. I wasn't necessarily sad, I just couldn't handle the stress of everything that comes with the end of the school year while also worrying about work and managing my money. The best way to overcome all of that is to just sit on your bed and let out a good cry. Crying always makes me feel better when I don't feel like my usual self.
The thing with being an emotional person is that if I hear one bad thing that someone says about me, over-think any decision I make, or I worry too much about the future, in a flash of a second my eyes fill up with tears and my face starts to turn red.
Being an emotional person doesn't equal sadness though, most of the time I am crying because I'm happy. Almost every instance that I leave the movie theater my tears are because of the happy ending or beautiful production. I cry at my favorite TV shows ending because I'll become so invested in the characters lives. I cry at finally seeing my favorite band in concert. Almost every time I think about my friends, my eyes tear up because I remember how lucky I am to have so many people that I love in my life that I would do anything for. I cry because I am passionate. I have an emotional soul and I would rather have that than seem like someone who can rule the world by being stone cold strong who's afraid to cry.
As I think about the future, I think about all the times I will have with my friends and family that will inevitably bring me to tears. It's not that I look forward to crying, but I like to embrace my emotional being and understand that it's good to cry about life, because it means that you really care.
