I'm sitting here, staring at a blank space save for the blinking cursor. I've got music playing on my Spotify, I'm hoping to find inspiration there. I flip over to my Facebook, partially because of frustration and partially because I am a horrible procrastinator.
I feel like I should write about all the horrible shit that has happened in the past week in our country but I can't find the words for it. I don't do politics anyway and what could I possibly write that countless others haven't already penned? In all honesty, I'm not sure I can even find the words to properly convey my unsettled feelings.
I keep hoping that this is all a bad dream. That I'm going to wake up and realize that the banning, control of media, willful ignorance and acts of childishness were just something my brain made up after watching a movie. I keep trying to ignore the feeling in my stomach that things are rapidly heading towards WWIII and there will be no stopping it. I keep trying to ignore the voice in the back of my mind, urging me to start gathering supplies, to prep for the day when my only option is to run.
It sounds crazy, right? With the way things have been going, maybe not so much.
But I also have this desperate hope that everything is going to end up okay. That our ..."esteemed leader," ends up being the greatest president we've ever had. That he pulls his head out of his ass and actually grows the fuck up. But let's be real, dude is 70 years old, it's probably not going to happen.
I have such a conflict of thoughts about this administration, mainly because who on earth hopes their leader fails? At the same time, I want him gone, but I do NOT want Pence as president either. While Trump is childish and lecherous, Pence is a wolf in sheep's clothing. If you thought women were treated unfairly before, a Pence administration would put us back in the kitchen, barefoot and pregnant.
I don't understand the world right now. I don't really want to. I'm being forced to, though, and it's for the better I guess. Better to be able to make educated decisions than to blindly follow the crowd. Better to understand that history is trying to repeat itself and to try to stop that from happening.
These next four years are not going to be fun.
