It's over. I have made it through an entire year of college, all the challenges and trials therein, and have emerged on the other side. I have two and a half months with no homework, no essays, no extreme stressors. So, Charlotte, you ask, what are you doing this summer?
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What AM I doing this summer? I typically have a bad time without a task upon me. I will be doing something this summer: it's impossible for any person to do absolutely nothing for that long without being dead, and I certainly do not plan on that.
What do I want to be doing with my summer? I want to write. It is my calling, placed within the deepest portions of my soul. But what will I write? Do I finish/get closer to completing my current project, which has remained more stable than most of my ideas have for that amount of time? Do I start working on other stories, with more pressing urgency and message or just more fun to explore? Or just hash out some strange new idea I just came up with? Whatever my overarching project is, I know I will be doing daily writing prompts and these articles at the barest minimum.
But what do I need to be doing? I need to get back into an exercise routine of some kind: that degenerated over the last semester, and needs to be renewed, along with a regular, sufficient sleep cycle. Also, I am back home after so many months away from my family: I simply need, if not want to spend time with them. Playing games, watching TV together...it doesn't matter what or how, I need to catch up with them. There is also several of my old high-school friends to check in with, one of whom is moving to Vietnam before the summer is out. I am terrible with goodbyes, especially those that might be forever; I need to meet up with them one more time, or the lost potential will haunt me, nagging at me at the worst possible moments.
And really, what should I be doing with this time? My mother says this is finally time for me to get a job, if just for the summer. I, honestly, have never had a "real job;" the closest thing was a full-immersion youth program at the Fulton Theater where we went into the backstage offices and did what the real team for a real show did. I don't want to be a dramaturg for a living. It would just be a simple retail job, but I still have to prepare my resume and actually apply, not to mention if I actually have to start working...
All in all, I have a whole summer in front of me, and an array of tasks, wanted and merely required, that clamor to be included. At this point, I do not know how they will all fit. So for now, I'm playing video games.
HECK YEAH "BRAVELY SECOND."
