"First Time Mom Shoutout"
Mad love and shouting loud and clear to my first time Mommas. All Momma's are amazing but we could for the most part agree the first time is unlike any other for obvious reasons.
First thing's first. CAN YOU BELIEVE YOU ARE A MOMMA RIGHT NOW?! Like you're completely responsible for that little thing. If I had a dollar for every time this out-of-body experience kind of thought crossed my mind, my 2 door paid for Honda would have AC right now.
Also stop worrying that you made the wrong decision. Wrong diaper? Wrong bottle? Does she/he even Iike this paci? Oh this one got me, what in the world do I bathe my baby in? Nighttime lavender, oh wait, extra moisturizing, but why can't I just use the normal head-to-toe wash? Is there something wrong with her? Does she already have eczema?! Literally these were the thoughts running through my head and still do.
What about the time I was bathing her she swallowed a gallon of the soapy bath water?! I just knew that was it. I had killed her or she'd at leasthave water in her lungs. I cried while she coughed for 30 secs tops. Oh, it gets even better. The one time after her 2 month appointment,(you know the very first time they get shots) I turned around to check on her and dropped my cell phone RIGHT ON HER SOFT SPOT. Way to go. Total "mom of the year" material. We cried together once again.
How about how we measure every thing in ounces now. Breast or formula doesn't matter. I was cooking supper and my recipe called for two cups of water. It was ten mins later when I realized that I was staring off into space trying to convert and see how many ounces are in two cups?! Y'all. This is really my life these days. I measure in hrs too. You know since we sleep 3 hrs at a time on a good night.
This entire journey has rocked me to my core. It has picked me up, shook me, and drop me on my you know what. I have laughed, I have cried, I have laughed until I cried. It's the hardest thing I have ever done but let's all be honest we know exactly how we got here. All these things don't matter and I know it takes more than love to raise a baby but you sweet woman. You're doing it. That baby loves you like NO human being, well maybe as much as your mom, loves you.I just want you to know how amazing you are but how incredibly bless we are to have these tiny humans love us back. By the way, ain't no bond like the maternal bond. So bye Felicia. Also good job on keeping the little one alive and yourself and whoever else you may be taking care of. Even the goldfish. Good job. Soak up all the moments. I say all the time, there's Mommas who would give anything for one more bad night with their little ones. These are the good days ladies. There's a light at the end of the tunnel. I promise. Mad love for you all.
