First off I want to thank everyone who helped me put together the 3rd Annual Cole’s Commanders Golf Tournament this past weekend. Without your help it wouldn’t have been possible. As you know this is the first BIG fundraiser we held since my brothers passing and it’s only fitting that it was the one that brought the Cole’s into our life.
This past week has been a very emotional one. There were times I wanted to throw my hands in the air and give up, but then I thought about Cole and how no matter what he would never give up. I realized that even though he is no longer here in person he still has yet to give up, that what we are doing now is because we want to carry on his legacy that is so much bigger than us. In his 17 years of life he has done more then most people have done in their 80 years.
Growing up with Cole was an adventure to say the least. I can’t tell you how many times he would cuss me up and down saying “This was the worst day ever!!” Then in the same breath say I was the best sister in the world and how much he loved me. He was a spoiled hard headed evil little monkey that was the kindest most caring person you would ever meet. God, family and friend always came first in his eyes; his disease always took a back seat when someone he cared about was in pain. After his passing we learned of all the amazing things he did in his life time. We learned of bullies that he stopped from harming others, Bible verses he send to people who were having a bad day and just how may people he brought to God. Cole might have been a typical teenage boy in many ways but when it came to his passion of helping others he was wise beyond his years.
Not having Cole by my side this past weekend was another milestone I needed to overcome. He was always the level headed one when it came to our projects, even though I was the one doing most of the work. He would tell me “what ever happens, happens its in Gods hands.” When I got home that late that night I cried. I cried from the sadness of not having Cole by my side, I cried from the relief that the stressful day was over but I also cried because we met an amazing goal that day. The money raised helps with my brother’s dream of helping other CF families who are in need.
I know there are more mountains I still have to climb in the upcoming years. Some are just hills while others will be compared to Mount Everest but with the people I love by my side and Cole looking down on me I know I can do anything.
ATTENTION: This post was written a year and 6 months ago on my Cole's 50 State Bucket List on Wordpress.com. I wanted to post this to show the mountains that climbed since this post :) Thank you everyone for your support!
