I don’t know how to forget about you.
I live every day doing my best to put you out of my mind,
but you crawl back in when I’m unguarded.
You seep from the cracks of my heart into my dreams.
Last night, I dreamt we reunited.
We had broken up, but I lost my determination and reached out to you.
You let me back in.
We talked, we loved, we were friends again.
I woke up and forced myself back to sleep for hours, just to be close to you again.
Last week, you hated me.
You yelled at me, called it unfair that I could still feel so much for you.
I yelled back at you and her.
Even in the midst of an argument, I was close to you.
I woke up and thought about calling you, but I didn’t.
Last month, we were perfect.
You listened, and I forgave.
We were together, no inhibitions.
No one else to destroy our path to each other.
I woke and wished for you.
How long will it be until I forget you?
How long until I’m not begging to dream and dreading being awake?
How much longer do I have to live without you?
