Some days everything hits me all at once. Other days I remember I'm still here, but the time feels so fleeting. I cannot believe in less than three months, I will no longer be a college student. I can't believe that this chapter of my life is almost over. All I can do is sit and reminisce about the past and how beautiful and nerve-wracking this future is.
I remember every summer my dad and I going on adventures throughout the city. Going to the Museum of Natural History and Museum of Modern Art. Taking circle line boat tour around the boroughs. My dad allowed to me to experience New York City with him. Every summer the same routine, and I lived for these moments. As I got older, that time got less and less. Growing up is funny you know.
I remember waking up early to keep my mom company in the morning before going to school. Watching the sun come up on those cold winter mornings. I took in everything she did. Moments like these might feel irrelevant, but these memories are pure gold.
I can remember different moments in my life from Kindergarten to now. Look at how far I have come. The future is scary. Life has always been there, but now all is progressing. My future is mine and I have to reach it. I have to tell myself that I will be okay.
New beginnings are scary.
We can't always dwell on the past. We have to accept it. I have to accept that I'm getting older.
When were younger, all we saw were adults. We wanted to be them and have our independence. We wanted to be able to make our own decisions and own rules. It's funny how much I wish to be a kid again. Not to have a care in the world. Everything was so simple back then. I would lay in bed and watch Hey Arnold, Rugrats, The Cosby Show, All That. That era in my life would probably not seem perfect to myself then, but it's perfect now. I wish I could remind my younger self not to want to grow up so soon and appreciate all these little moments you have.
The times when you appreciate your childhood and all the universe had to offer. When you know inside you heart that no matter how old you get you will always be your parent's little girl.
How has life flown by so quickly?
Four years have been so short.
I'm excited and nervous for my life beyond these walls knowing that I won't be waking up to my roommate voices. Those random moments that you need to talk to your friends, their there. No more 2 a.m. conversations about life. Everything has led to this.
What is my purpose?
Life will definitely be different after college. I am willing to embrace all the changes coming to me. This road will not be easy. It shouldn't. I will make mistakes. I will fail. In the end, I will grow. There is a universe full of possibilities awaiting. It will be so interesting to see where I am in the next six months. In the end, life doesn't wait for anybody.
"Change is hard at first, messy in the middle and gorgeous at the end" (Robin Sharma).
