I have always been a person that has struggled with giving trust. I guess when we give trust we expect something in return. In some cases it may be the hope that the other person won’t hurt us. In all dating experiences I have been in, it starts out great but then it just ends up with me having trust issues. That’s right I am that girl with trust issues.
Maybe it stems from abandonment or just being hurt in the past and maybe even being lied to. So I started to wonder this question while being up at 3:00 AM…do we give trust until it needs to be taken away or do we let everyone earn it? That is the big question that I have always struggled with in my 20 years of living.
So at 3:03 AM I thought to myself, what is stressing going to do for me and where is this going to get me…literally no where. Then the moment I realized maybe take a chance and see where it goes popped in my head. I should not worry about every little thing because where does that get anyone? No where because while we are focusing on having trust issues and watching every little thing, we are wasting the time that we could be using to build a healthy relationship. I guess it comes with the over thinker side of me. I just over think every little detail of my life, so today at 3:06 AM, I decided to relax and take a deep breath because we shouldn’t over analyze every little sentence that someone says or actions they take. Instead we need to relax and enjoy the ride because isn’t that what life is about…taking chances?
He was the one I wanted to put my trust in and take a chance on. He is the one I give my faith to. Even though one of us or both of us could get hurt, instead of being a pessimistic person I will be the optimistic person in this relationship. In relationships, you can only worry about what you do on your end. So I refuse to stray but rather stay faithful in this relationship. Yes, every relationship has rules and boundaries that you work out together to feel comfortable, so once you agree together to set those to what you both feel is right, then you stick to that because it is like your vow.
So at 3:10 AM, I decided to be the young woman that puts her trust in people and to become the happy go lucky person I am. When you are very happy together, realize nothing in the past can stand in your way. Have faith in people and enjoy the ride because I have realized there are bigger things to worry in life so why worry about the easy stuff that’s suppose to create pure joy. So here is my leap of faith.
